12 months after a toxic relationship
It's been 12 months since I broke up with my girlfriend, we had a 5 year relationship and 2 years of a toxic we-are-only-friends relationship. During those 2 years we had a lot of problems, especially jealousy. I don't want to talk about that. But I do want to talk about my experience after 12 months of not talking at all.
At first it was really hard, I missed her so much I felt like I wanted to die. But as time went on, I started to feel better. I don't want to blame her for my depression, but I think our toxic relationship was an important pillar. Today, I still struggle with depression and sadness, but I feel better, I have rediscovered the bonds with my friends and I have started doing sports and walking. All this has helped me to improve my life and I hope it will continue.
To anyone struggling with a toxic relationship and not knowing if it should end.I send you a big hug. And tell you that things will get better in time.
I have a philosophy in life, when something bad happens to us, the sadness never goes away, but we get used to it. We get used to feeling that sadness just like we can get used to physical pain, sometimes we remember it and we feel the pain again, but with time we get used to it.